the oasis of my mind

most of these writings come from restlessness and seem to have a theme of ambivalence and solitude...guess that's what i revert to sometimes.

the oasis of my mind

seduced thoughts rising above the weight of exhaustion wearing the crown of ambivalence, the majesty of an eccentric desert so vast in solitude that if i dare cross it

i shall perish

swept away in some mirage that nourishes inner simplicity

it is there i knock down another wall so i may crawl to the depths of me

reaching the hole of recognition that invites me to swim in the sea of forgetfulness and rinse away the dead tormented skin

in the oasis of my mind i touch a nonexistent peace that comforts my departure of the eluding present, the charmless past and the unfathomable future

it is here i see my reflection to discover i was looking into my own eyes

lj
04.16.00

sharing

so i thought i might share a bit of my writing today. wasn't sure which one. then i just decided to open one of my books and whatever page it opened up to then that would be the one. here it is:

some place where

this day carry me some place where

i'm no longer isolated by my own unrelenting solitude that seems to invade my emotions so bitterly that i cannot sense another feeling other than

ambivalence

this day take me some place where

i'm no longer cornered by my own cowardly emotions that seems to corrupt my thoughts so deceivingly that i cannot believe another word other than

breathe

this day abandon me some place where

i'm no longer threatened by my own bastardy thoughts that seems to annihilate my soul so convincingly that i cannot control another object other than

tears

this day release me some place where

i'm no longer scared by my own inescapable soul that seems to devastate my solitude so

easily that i cannot begin another love other than

you

this day let me go some place

away

from

here

lj

12.29.02