i've been here

all along

waiting 

for you

to notice

me

~lj 

maybe i'm just here to help the broken ones

help them mend enough to move on to something more

to help them see what a light they are to share

maybe my fragments are needed elsewhere than with me

~lj 

certain days

i will push you away

because i love you

love you enough to keep you safe

keep you from being pulled into this...

this riptide...

this black hole...

this uncertainty...

of me

most everydays

i will pull you so close

because i love you

love you enough to keep you safe

keep you from pulling away from this...

this current...

this magnetic force...

this sureness...

of us

~lj 

i can hide my emotions from the rest of the world but when i do i am locked in my own torture chamber for days letting the shadows eat away at what i have regrown

~lj

words are just air...

yet.....

they are the heaviest thing we can carry arounds somedays

~lj

will I ever be your first thought as you are always mine?

~lj

she's beauty in ways words escape me

her flaws

her scars

her love

she was magic

and i was fooled by the illusion

~lj 

kiss my scars of sorrow

help me cleanse the torture from my soul

journey with me to find beauty

let us grow at our own pace but always together 

~lj

sometimes stars collide with other stars creating the most spectacular fusion

sometimes stars become black holes where no light can be seen

~lj

i have enough pieces of me to fill the cracks in you

~lj

i want to read to you until i can no longer see 

i want to quote your favorite words until i can no longer remember

i want to dance with you until i can no longer move

i just want to love you for as many lifetimes as i am given

~lj

i needed to die....again

i needed to kill my heart...

i needed to fling my soul against the wall...smash it into the ground...ripe it apart until it was unrecognizable...

i needed my brain to explode...

i needed my eyes to burn...

i needed my skin to melt away...disintegrate into nothing...

i needed to die

I needed to die so i could regrow

~lj